She has promised me that something great is going to happen to me very soon, in the next 6 months or so.

I admit I believe in Maria Duval as she correctly got my life back on the right track.

It is still not perfect yet, but at least I know I am not straying off into the bushes again.

Life with him has been so nearly romantically perfect. I truly appreciate life now. It is beautiful.

I can’t help but waxing lyricals about Maria as much as I can.

With blessings..

I can’t even remember what went through me to keep me adrenalised constantly.

It could be due to the blue gemstone Maria Duval sent to me somewhere in March.

Yes, Life has turned terrific for me – I met a wonderful guy.

Chemistry just struck both of us instantly during that chilly March afternoon.

2 days later, we were holding hands.

2 weeks later, we were kissing like no where.

2 months later, you know what happens without me saying….

It was the best experience I ever had.

Deep in my mind, I have regarded him as my life partner.

Maria Duval, please continue to bless me.

I say a big thank you to YOU.

One short summary:

Starting my work on Monday, 11th Jan 2010.

Thanks, Maria duval, for this piece of luck.

I can go out to party at ease this weekend

Not sure if you believe, I actually feel a slight bit of positive difference within a couple of days of carrying the golden talisman.

He asked me to play BJ at the regular’s house but I rejected.

Seriously this is not the moment to speculate through cards, even though I have the talisman with me.

I guess the faith level is not there yet.

But I am improving all times.

I think I know this is the verdict.

Thanks Maria Duval.

Inside, I am waiting for something instinctively.
The days seems long on the other hand.

Indeed, I display some signs of hope towards life.
I begin to dream last few days what I want to be.

When i reach home, mom shouts to me that I have a “big letter”.
I dash to the drawer that keeps the incoming letters and dash back to my room.

Mom shouts at me what that is. I ignore her.

Yeah, it is the reply from Maria Duval that I have been waiting for.

There is a 4″ by 4″ talisman, in golden colour. There are exquisite patterns on both sides of the talisman. It feels expectantly.

I grab the talisman with both palms and close my eyes, trying to feel something inspiring and hopeful.

Does my mind get clearer in that instance?

Suddenly I feel like a kid who just receives the new toy.

It has been sometime since I have this kind of feeling.

Maria Duval gives me a personalised letter as well. This one feels thick.

Yeah, it is her astrology report for me. Wow, this is a letter of substance and I do not wish to read in details now.

It’s time that i rush out to meet my buddy again.

No matter how, thank you Maria Duval for this free report and talisman.

You have given a new lease of hope to my life.

I can’t even feed myself,
Feel like a loser.

Though there’s one thing which comes true from my heart,
That is, I have a heart to serve.
Impressive.

There was a cyclist who called me today.
He said his bike had been stolen.
His cash and belongings were in the bike.
He needed money to take a bus/train home.

Suspicious?

I think he knew my personality.
Yes, I am hard at rejecting people.
Not sure why.
My family’s heritage perhaps.

With that, $10 was gone.
It was my daily allowance.
He told me a place where you would meet me to return the $10.
I wonder.

Back in mind, I have no urgent wish to see this $10 returned.
I just hope this world can be easier and simpler.
Yeah, only 26, but i feel tired of this world.

Still waiting for Maria’s reply…..

I checked into my buddy’s home at the end of the street,
A simply decorated rental unit that is about 700 square feet.

I always like to look for her when I was bored.
She’s a homely girl so I can find her most of the time whenever she’s not at work.

Yeah, as her buddy, I know about of her secrets. Well….

At the corner of her queen size bed, I saw a stash of newspapers. What an untidy woman! Saw an ad that caught my attention.

She says she is able to help me. FOC. As long as I have faith in her.

Nah, nothing much to lose I guess. Why not?

I filled up the form at the corner of the ad, and showed it to buddy. She said while crunching on her tidbits that I was mad to believe in it!

I told her I would give it a try and let her know what’s going on…

Sad isn’t it? While we grow up, our wisdom improves, but the faith we have in this world pares. I think this is lamentable.

Can I put my belief in what you say, Maria Duval?

I’m not a lazy person who wishes for ripen apples to drop from the sky. I am willing to put in hardwork for exchange of better success. Just give me a peek of the possibility will do. Hope.

On the form, the question asks how much money do I desire?

This is a nonsense question. Can I put 1 trillion? 1 billion? 1 million? 100K? 10K? 1K or $100?

Well, more money is not what I hope.

What I hope for is a harmonious and satisfactory ending to each humble day.

This is not a demanding request, Maria Duval.

So on my way home, I posted the letter and I pray expectantly for congenial reply soon.

Please help me, Maria Duval.

No matter what, I got a feeling she’s a real person who wants to help rundown people around/

Weather today is decent. Neither too hot nor too cold. Its a perfect autumn weather.

Rather than being a crouch potato, maybe I would meet some lucky breaks outside.

Anyway, I have fallen near to the bottom of the abyss and there is not much to lose anymore. Is it very negative?

After the window shopping, I feel much better. Even though there is nothing special to talk of.

I cannot go on like this. If i were, life could be finished

Ｉ　ｋｎｏｗ　ｙｏｕ　ｇｕｙｓ　ｃａｒｅ　ａｂｏｕｔ　ｍｅ　ａｎｄ　ｗｏｒｒｙ　ｆｏｒ　ｍｅ．

Ｉ　ｋｎｏｗ　ａｂｏｕｔ　ｔｈａｔ　ｆｏｒ　ｓｕｒｅ．

Ｈｏｗｅｖｅｒ，　ｓｏ　ｗｈａｔ？？

Ｅａｃｈ　ａｎｄ　ｅｖｅｒｙ　ｃｏｎｃｅｒｎ　ｓｏｕｎｄｓ　ｔｈｅ　ｓａｍｅ　ｔｏ　ｍｅ　ｔｈａｔ　Ｉ　ｗｏｎｄｅｒ　ａｒｅ　ｔｈｅｙ　ｓｉｎｃｅｒｅ．

Ｉ begin to wonder if there were any ulterior reasons behind.

Of course this is still my home, but I don’t feel like going home now.

Frankly I don’t have the answers you guys want to listen to right now.

Hence I’d rather keep the mouth shut.

Dad told me at his last breath
Wanted me to believe in myself

But even he does not believe me

Are you…